I mention my great aunt's passing for good reason. This woman was a rock for me. She was practically another grandma for me. No matter what mischief I got myself into, and there has been plenty, she was there to support me.When she passed two weeks ago, I was in shock. I knew it was coming, but I chose not to believe it. But heartbreak and tears never took me over. I don't mourn her passing as many did. I am excited for the life that she led. She gave it her all and did what she wanted to do. She dressed to the 9's every day regardless of what she was doing or where she was going. If she wanted to go somewhere, she did it. She did what made her happy. Simply put, she spent her life being herself. She did what made her happy. For that simple fact, I am truly grateful. Some may call me naive in my feelings on the matter or numb to my emotions. Say what you want, I know what I feel.
Anyways, I must move on. Life moves on. Her passing was one of life's many challenges, and there will be many more. I could have chose to accept her passing as an emotional defeat or embrace it for how amazing she was. You can tell which path I was lead down in the end.
It is how we perceive and work with previously mentioned challenges that will decide our fate. We must stand up to these challenges, punishments, obstacles, or what ever it is that you want to call them and give them hell. As a human being we learn and triumph thanks to previous mistakes or accomplishments.
You can never be ready for everything, but you can be ready with the mindset of "I will win today, no matter what." It all comes around to that. In life there is winning and there is losing, no grey areas in my mind, there is no draw. You can make a conscious choice every day as to how you will tackle the day. If life hits you with a curveball, knock it out of the park and move to the next challenge knowing that you can succeed at anything.These past 2 months I let life have it's way with me. It was an emotional struggle to get through the day. Now I say this with confidence, with a fist a positive rage: I am back.
From this day forward, The Infidel is back to win it all. I'm standing up to whatever life has in store for me.
"Pain or damage don't end the world. Or Despair. Or fucking beatings.
The world end when you're dead.
Until then, you got more punishment in store.
Stand it like a man... and give some back."
